Difference in the atmosphere- Type two

Difference in the atmosphere- Type two

Why we have to do stuff we really hate to do?
“negamel ba3ad ya3ni”
As I said before I don’t hang with my relatives much, yes some times I think their actions and personalities is annoying, they do a lot of immature stuff and they are to some point to me are dull. But I also believe they think the same for me as well but that doesn’t mean I hate them or ashamed to be with them hey we are family anyway and I will act different if the same wards came from a stranger and not from me.
Their fathers and mothers always ask why don’t I go with them and hang around and stuff?! I always say I’m busy or don’t feel like it cuz I either have to work overtime or wanna rest or at least to be left alone. Sometimes I get the feeling that they think I changed or maybe thought that I looked down at them or the attitude was changed at a full 360 and vise versa. We haven’t much things in common even if we have the majority doesn’t so it won’t show when we get together. Most of are busy really rather personal or educational even social so don’t we have the right to at least hangout with people we feel comfortable with? Why waste a weekend “in an employee point of view” with a group you care about but you know it will be a drag cuz of the gap between you and them
Why make them feel like they having seconds thoughts of taking you or asking you to go out with them again since deep inside you know ya don’t want to. Thinking back I remember when I get mad, angry even jealous if everyone went and I wasn’t asked or invited but that was like 4 years ago or more, everybody at least is not the same anymore today
I won’t get mad the fact one day they left but i wasn’t asked to come even though I was in the same house that night cuz they already know I won’t go so ya why should they ask then? Sometimes it’s sad the fact we’re not hanging out anymore like we used to or the fact we only see each other 3 times a year by family reunion or on the internet but I guess everyone has a goal or something to do. I know this lately that I have my own life and world that I would like to polish and create so I guess I shouldn’t get angry since mine doesn’t orbit with all the others
Never the less no matter how much good or bad things I say about them what’s important is that we are family hell going out and stuff like that doesn’t really matters even if I was forgotten or wasn’t there to share the good moments also doesn’t matters cuz honestly I ain’t ganna die from it what matters is if any of us is in deep shit we should help at least once, having no grudges what so ever as well
being happy in the good events